*Wishes and other stuff around the neighborhood
*Forest Park Adventure
*Spring is here for real!
*Still in Portland, still no job...what's next??
Tuesday, March 4: Jae called me a “starving artist” and I thought, How Bohemian! But I guess she is right: no money, no job, spend most of my time writing things that don’t pay (yet!). However, I don't think I look the part: It seems like I should be dressing a little more hippy-ish if I'm a real starving artist. Right?
Nice and mild again today. While running an errand (groceries at New Seasons), passed by this vine/fluffy seed thing that I have been wanting to take pictures of forever, and finally it was the right light to do it. Got lots of pictures like the one below--so fun, but a few people passing by were wondering what I was doing, and I upset some crows--maybe near a nest or something.
Friday, March 7: Sunny and warm again—finally got a good weather day to visit the ole' UPS box. And got a letter from Grandma! On my way back home, stopped in at Hollywood Vintage just to look around. Have wanted to stop in there for months; every time I go by I wonder about it because the building is so big and pink and ugly. It was very big inside, and had costumes upon costumes in addition to vintage clothing. I tried on some hats with flowers, in honor of spring.
Learning to ride a bike?
Driving a car?
Flying in an airplane?
Riding a train?
Cruising with a biker gang?
Flying a helicopter for search and rescue team?
Racing for Nascar?
I totally should have asked her about it! Now it will always be a mystery to me.
So I began “The Great Scan: Reducing My Life to Flash drives”!!!! It was a rainy weekend and good for staying in and getting things done. Although I have downsized to just about nothing over the last few years (six moves in nine years is a powerful motivator to have less stuff!) I still stockpile information. I've become an information hoarder! I can’t stand to get rid of a piece of info or idea or something I've written! It could be useful some day!! So, now I’m sorting and scanning it. Some of it I’m not sure about, and maybe the scanning is a step toward total deletion, but whatever. At least I won’t be hauling it around anymore!
Forest Park Adventure!
When I first got there I was waylaid for a short time due to the fact that there were some people there shooting for the TV show Grimm! I don’t watch Grimm, but I had heard that it was filmed (mostly?) in Portland. I couldn't see much, except a couple of actors going down a hill yelling “Delta! Delta!." After about 10 minutes, I was able to venture out on the trail and around the curve there was a whole group of people and carts and stuff lined up on one side of the path. I would have liked to have watched, but there wasn’t really anyplace to stand, quite crowded.
Everything covered in moss! This stuff in my hand, the kind of moss that hangs down and coats branches, is called "treebeard." It's really lightweight and soft, but when it absorbs water it can get heavy and really weigh a tree down.
felt like!) I straggled out of the shady forest and into the bright sunshine to take in the view--took a bit of checking around, but did indeed see five mountains!
And the Wildwood Trial is 30 miles long! And there are supposedly bears and cougars in Forest Park!
So for once I did the sensible thing and walked down the winding road from Pittock Mansion, down to Burnside, and caught a bus back to the city.
And it seems like I’m getting mixed messages about what to do—or maybe there is a clear directive, but I keep messing it up with my own wants and worries.
So, I’m trying to be ready for whatever comes next, whatever I choose/need to do. I am feeling anxiety about it, but I’ve also been finding a calm place to rest, to breathe through the emotions and let them pass. It’s only discomfort, after all, and I can handle that.
I'm also realizing that when you invite change in and ask for things to be different, well…they are going to be different! And, what what??? You don’t always get to decide how they are going to be different! (Shocker!)
So, I’m continuing to wait and see and trying to look forward to rather than dread. Next post will have the news, one way or another!
Hope you are all well, and seeing lots of signs of spring! :)